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[Jul. 15th, 2009|08:36 pm] |
I still don’t have a cell phone, but I do have a new number. Google voice. You should be able to leave a message below. This crazy technology world!
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[Jul. 15th, 2009|02:58 pm] |
Just got home from a long day at Methodist.
We spoke with Dr. F and her team about the goals for next week's surgery. My favourite Punk asked lots and lots of questions. It frustrated me a little because all of the questions he plied her with were things I had already spoken with him about, but I know that hearing these things from her eased his mind some. She did not say anything about the surgery that I did not already expect -(they will try to do the least invasive procedure possible, but depending on the scar tissue they may have to really carve into my abdomen, they expect to find nothing, but if they find anything they will biopsy, and if the results are good all of the tubes and ports will come out)-, which is good. My original plan was to ask them to take everything out even if they do find evidence of remaining cancer cells since I got laid off and will not likely be able to afford COBRA. However, Dr. F said that if they find anything they can write letters of recommendation to the hospital so that I can possibly enter a special program for people who lose their insurance mid-treatment for whatever reason. I cannot properly express the relief I felt when she told us about that.
My actual surgery date got moved from Monday to Tuesday because Dr. B -(the other surgeon on my team)- is currently in Isreal with her mentor to perform another rare surgery and will not be back in time. There is a little boy who has a cancerous tumour in his heart, and the doctors are going to take the muscle out of his chest, cut his heart to get into the affected area, excise as much of the tumour as possible, and then put his heart back together again. If I do not have the most amazing surgical team in the world, I do not know who does.
The one black spot on the day is that my blood pressure is back up again. So I have to go back on my meds once more... which is disappointing. At least it is something we can fix.
I was supposed to go work at the Glitterdome today, but with spending most of the day in the hospital they said to just come in tomorrow. I am so grateful for whatever days they give me. I really need all of the chances to work there that I can get until I am able to find a new fulltime job. I started my application for TWC today... I am nervous about it. I have applied and forwarded my resume countless times in this past three weeks -(almost...)-, and no interviews yet. It is very frustrating.
At least soon we will know whether or not I am cancer free... |
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[Jul. 12th, 2009|04:19 pm] |
Question...
My cousin's having a wedding. The attire is - and I quote from the website - "The wedding attire is natural fabrics and sandals. Think linen pants. Think breezy. Look nice. It's still a wedding, even if it's a bbq wedding."
Asking me to find natural fabrics in my closet is a pretty tough task, but I bought this at Marshall's today, thinking - It's very me and is in keeping with the breezy spirit of the wedding, without being dour. It's also 97% cotton (good enough for me!!!). I realized when I got home that it's a white background with black and yellow on it - shit! Is that too much white to wear as a wedding guest?
Damn, I was so excited to have found something cotton that I loved... what do you think? Is it out of the question to have a dress with some white in it? ( Picture:<br )
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| Rock Baby Rock It |
[Jul. 9th, 2009|05:13 pm] |
Sat., July 11 - The Ninth Annual Rock Baby Rock It!, featuring Los Benders, Almon Loos & the Hoop and Hollers, The Haymakers, Luxurious Panthers, The Octanes, Dykes On Bykes, Panic Doll Burlesque, The Ghost Storys, The Von Dukes, Clouseaux, The Grass Skirts, Kon Tikis, The Steven Reynolds Band, Johnny Gunhand, DJ Big E, & Mr. Telephone Road @ The Continental Club/The Big Top (2PM-2AM)
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Not sure what time we play, I think at 7pm.... |
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| ...the words sometimes just will not come. |
[Jul. 6th, 2009|05:22 pm] |
For weeks now I have been trying to write an entry, but as the title of this one says...
the right words have been eluding me.
I have been fighting one of the deepest depressions I have ever known, and even though I could not see the light at the end of the tunnel I kept trying to go on... to move forward. It has been very rough. On me as well as my poor favourite Punk. And before things could get any better for me, of course they had to get worse. I got laid off from the FirstJob Friday before last.
They gave all twelve of us that they laid off two month's severance, but I am supposed to have my exploratory surgery to find out whether or not I am in remission on the twentieth of this month... which is supposed to be my victory dance against this stupid disease I have been fighting. But that puts me out of the work search for at least a week, if not two, depending on how much scar tissue they have to deal with. It is bad enough that I am in competition with a bad economy full of other people who are looking for work... there is no way that I will be able to afford COBRA to keep myself insured until I get another job with benefits so that my cancer will not be considered a preexisting condition. Unless another miracle happens, I am quite simply screwed. And I am afraid I have used up all of my miracles with my illness.
Something else...
the chemo fried my ovaries, so I get to go through premature menopause. Yeay. So I get to be even more emotional, have hot flashes in one-hundred-and-two-degree weather, and any last hope of having children has been taken from me without my knowledge or consent. If I had any ferocity left in me, I would scream my throat bloody raw. But I feel nothing but defeated.
The Sparkle Lady and Mrs. Perfect have been kind enough to let me work a couple of days at the Glitterdome, which will help keep food on the table, but it will not be enough to make up for what I will lose at the end of next month if something does not change. No one has called me to interview for the jobs I have applied for yet, but I will try to hope. I promise I will try. But I am frightened out of my ever loving mind. I have never had to apply for unemployment before... and I am frustrated that I may have to. I am a good, honest, hard working, loyal person, and I am downhearted that I have been screwed out of a job after almost six years.
It has taken me a long time to write this, because I hate talking about how I feel when I am so low. I hate feeling helpless and hopeless. But it is the truth of what I am, and I must be honest. Especially to myself. |
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| Family 'n stuff |
[Jul. 8th, 2009|09:55 pm] |
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Hey everyone! Well, I haven't posted in about six weeks, and you might be able to guess why: having a family can be a bit time-consuming. Yeah, I know, it's a lame excuse. I'll pad it out a bit by saying I'm also pretty lazy when it comes to doing LiveJournal stuff these days.
So life's been busy, but really good too. I'll catch y'all up on what's been happening lately, but it's a rather long post and includes some photos, so I'm going to put most of it behind a cut, so as not to monopolize your screen space, just because I'm cool that way.
( Click here to read on. )
Like I always say, I'll try to post more often. Hope everyone is doing well. |
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| MyLife FAIL |
[Jul. 6th, 2009|05:00 am] |
 If you’re going to run an ad on Facebook (see screenshot to the right …) you should maybe finish high school, or in lieu of that hire someone who can spell. ”See who searched for your [sic] instantly with mylife!
So, whoever you are, MyLife (I didn’t click through to find out), consider this your gratis copy edit for the day. I would take payment from you in the form of getting off my Facebook page.
And by-the-way, “who searched for you”? Is this junior high school? If someone was searching for me with the intent of contacting me, they already did. If someone searched for me for any other reason, it’s just another data-point for how bad Reality Television is these days. (When you have to resort to googling Bill, you have sunk fairly low.)
And apparently the person who’s been searching for you? Skinny, blond, hangs outside the door smoking next to a trash can. You really want to know who it is!
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| Cent Aware |
[Jul. 3rd, 2009|08:55 am] |
I guess it’s been off my numismatic radar, but a few days ago I ended up with two shiny pennies with new reverse sides (the obverse side is the same it’s been since 1909). Using as an excuse the 200th anniversary of Lincoln’s birth, they have create four new images to put on the reverse. Look for them in a pocket near you.
This all leads me to wonder how much longer the penny will endure.
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